I have some really bad news to share with some people tonight… It’s been about two years since I truly began transitioning, and something I had assured many people (not by their request… it was just my way of letting them know I wouldn’t always be “OMG OMG OMG I GET TO BE ALICIA!!!!”) is that my constant gushing over getting to be my true self won’t always be a thing… that I’d calm down and not be so excited about getting to live my life as a woman.
Well, two years in, and I have some bad news…
IT HASN'T HAPPENED YET!!! And I’m realizing it might not happen (but it will still change and, hopefully, not be too obnoxious).
I’m still blown away every time I see myself in the mirror! I’m still in awe every time I get to plan an outfit for work. I’m still amazed when Jamie zips me up, or I see a bra strap poke out. I just saw one a few moments ago, and realized how much it still reminds me that the person I had wanted to be for decades… is now the person I get to be!
It will change over time, but OMG it feels so amazing to just be my true self.
So sorry… but also, not sorry!
Hugs,
Alicia (and it means so much to be able to say that!!!)
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